Wednesday, August 14, 2013

lunch today

Lunch for the boys today:

saltine crackers and cheese
nacho doritos, BBQ ruffles, stale cheetos mixed in a bowl
leftover pancakes
peanut butter (not on the pancakes. just a glob on the plate. eating it with forks.)

Liam is licking something off the table. No idea what.

Mom of the year award today.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

RIP, Herbie.

Rest in peace, Herbie. It was a good 5 1/2 years. You will be missed. Really, you will. Sorry about that year we kept you in the garage. And that time we lost you after gluing a Santa hat on your shell. And that time we thought you were dead and almost threw you away, but realized you were just molting. And the next time we did that.

You were an awesome pet.

Oh, and thanks for peeing on that one missionary who kept flipping you over. He deserved it.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

love is love

Here I am. 5 years later. Saying the same thing I said just over 5 years ago. It has been a long, annoying battle, and it's nowhere near over. Why would I consider this a long, annoying battle for myself? I'm married. I'm straight. This doesn't actually affect what I can do or not do. I'll give you two reasons: 1) I care about the people around me; 2) when the church you love and the conscience you trust say two different things, you have to dig deep to figure out which way you'll go. This has not been a fun process for me personally. But here I am 5 years later saying it again. Love is love. To all my friends out there who have been waiting for this day, here it is again. Let's hope it sticks this time.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

things i tell myself in my head

Do you talk to yourself? Okay, don't tell me that you talk to yourself out loud. That kind of weirds me out. Sorry. I know it shouldn't, but it does. Now I think you're creepy.

Anyway, do you talk to yourself in your head? I often find myself laughing at the things I say to myself. The things I actually "say" to myself are normally motivational (i.e. a kick in the pants to do what I'm supposed to be doing at that moment). I'm quite stern with myself. For example, here are some things I caught myself saying today and yesterday:

"Only two hours of work left. You got this, Molly. You got this."

"Seriously. Focus."

"Make the freaking cookies already!"

Granted, the majority of the words going through my head today consisted of Commander D and Big Fat W. boy D, commander D, the well-known D... (Kudos to you if you know what I'm talking about.) It's a rough life.

Oh, then there's running. I'm not sure thoughts even go through my head at all while I'm running. I do NOT sort out life's problems while running. Nothing goes through my head. Nothing. Ask me to do simple math calculations while running and I will prove to you that my brain shuts down when I run.

So tell me: Do you spend your time pondering existential topics or giving yourself motivational speeches about focusing? Please tell me it's the latter and I'm not alone on this.

Monday, March 4, 2013

one year since the leap: Google farewell

I really can't believe it has been a year since I posted about taking a leap into what we hoped would be two wonderful opportunities. It seemed so scary at the time, but it turned out to be a great decision.

This past Friday marked the last day of Christian's contract position at Google*. From what I hear, his team honored him by dressing up (a fitting farewell for the ever-fashionable, bowtie-wearing Christian).

Although I know he is sad to leave his team, I know he had a blast this past year: memes only his team would find funny, rainbow birthday cakes, searching the area for every red bull flavor available, handing out microwave popcorn to strangers, decorating the office for every holiday (and then some), mystery cafe tours, trips to the city, growing a ridiculously amazing mustache. I could go on and on. (Don't get me wrong--he actually worked this past year. This was just the frosting on the cake.)

So now it's time to move on to new adventures. We'll just have to trust that cape until we find out what the next adventure will be, but if it's anything like this adventure, we'll take it.

I love you, Christian! Glad you had a great year at Google! I'll leave you with these lovely videos. :)

(PS--I stole most of these photos from coworkers' Facebook pages. I hope that's okay!)

*A common question from friends and family is if Christian's contract can be extended. Unfortunately, Google mandates a one-year max for contract employees and a 90-day layoff period before contractors can be hired on again.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

I Love You!

I Love You!


Thursday, January 3, 2013

how i want to live my life

A couple weeks ago I wrote about the Mayan calendar and the winter solstice. I mentioned that I would sit down that evening and writing my life resolutions for the new era: how I plan to contribute to a new world, in my home, in my community, and globally.

I have mulled over these resolutions for the past week and am still happy with my initial list, with one addition.
  1. Pay attention to my children
  2. Pay attention to my husband
  3. Talk to my children about kindness and love
  4. Schedule time for community service
  5. Consume responsibly
  6. Embrace, explore, and develop my faith
  7. Speak kindly about others
  8. Embrace the hard
If anyone cares to read on, I've written a bit about each of my life resolutions below so I can come back to this periodically.

Pay attention to my children
I do not love playing with my children. There. I said it. I love them fiercely, but I am not one who loves to play legos or playdoh or make-believe. I've never been that type (couldn't stand babysitting while I was growing up). Far too often I find myself spending their awake time cleaning my house and telling my children to wait so I can finish doing something I could easily leave until later. While I do have fun with my kids and hug and kiss them constantly, I recognize that it takes a conscious effort on my part to actually play with them. I will pay attention to my children.

Pay attention to my husband
His likes, his dislikes, his interests, what makes him laugh, what hurts him, what gives him hope, what troubles him, what he needs, what he wants. Christian can be quite the chatter box when you get him going, but much of the time he keeps his thoughts to himself. I can't know him if I don't pay close attention. And it's hard to have a happy home if you don't truly know that best friend who shares your room. I will pay attention to my husband.

Talk to my children about kindness and love
When Graham was born I started writing in the most endearing baby book. Under Mother's and Father's Ambitions for Baby I wrote, "We want you to be a good person. Be happy. Appreciate your life. Be kind to others. Say nice things about people. Love your family. Love us, please. We love you so much." I still don't feel the need to add anything to that short list. I want my children to know true kindness and love. It is up to us to teach them.

Schedule time for community service
I used to do a lot of community service in high school, everything from picking up trash on the side of the road to working at a food bank. Then life happened, and the only community service I do anymore is give blood. Some may say that spending upward of 14 hours a week preparing for and teaching early-morning seminary (scripture study class for teenagers) is community service. That's just everyday life for us. To me, community service means reaching out beyond your social circles to interact with and serve strangers. The opportunities are out there. I just need to get my foot back in that door.

Consume responsibly
A result of not having much money is that you spend less money. You get a keen sense of wants versus needs. It turns out most things in life are wants. We have very few needs. I have lost the desire to have lots of things. In the process I have really started to notice the waste all around us. I am being more selective about what I buy, looking at products for their environmental as well as social impact. I plan to blog more about this. This is my global contribution.

Embrace, explore, and develop my faith
Contrary to some peoples' belief, I am not in my religion merely because I was born into it. I have spent years thinking about my faith: what aspects of my religion I love, what aspects make me think, and what aspects make me cringe. I have made a conscious decision about my faith. I will continue to embrace, explore, and develop my faith--how it applies to my life and what I believe--but I want to do so with more intent.

Speak kindly about others
I give people the benefit of the doubt. I get along with almost everyone I meet, and I think I have the ability to understand people--what makes them do and think and say the things they do, even if it differs from how I act. However, there will always be those few whose opinions and actions I just cannot wrap my brain around. This is when I fall short of this resolution. Speaking ill of others brings no good. There is no benefit. I will work harder at this and be more aware when I find myself getting sucked in to such a conversation.

Embrace the hard
I added this to the list after reading today's post by Damaris over at Kitchen Corners. Things have been hard. Most of my life is wonderful, but there are parts that have been very hard in the last few years. Things I can't change. I am slowly learning how to embrace the hard that comes along with life, but it is always so difficult to embrace these things in the moment. There will always be hard things mixed into even the best life. It will do me a world of good if I can learn to embrace the hard.